Just a little naughty...

Amanda recorded one of our standard runs at the Go! Dog! Go! trial a couple weekends ago...this video makes me happy in my heart...Neena was totally being naughty, but she's just so happy.  And even though she does some 'free-styling'...she's not worried, she's not shutting down, and we are still playing together...

 In a nutshell that was our whole weekend...I was so proud of her, and of myself...we've worked hard this summer and I know we may slip again in the future...fear and confidence are funny that way...but now I know we can work through it.

And that is a lesson more valuable to me than any Q :).

Introducing...

Loco the kitty...he belongs to my roomie Jacinda, man I forgot how much darn fun kittens are:)!  I was a little worried how Neena would handle small, random and fast...but she's done great.  And Loco has no fear at all...he's a pretty cool lil dude.  Hopefully I can catch some photo's of the two hooligans up to mischief soon!

#301 -  317 of a Thousand, Endless Gifts
~ being the big sister
~ forgiveness
~ after market exhausts and underpasses
~ dancing with the flower girls...
~ lil tuxes & black eyes
~ a little quiet time with Jaxon
~ nipple nibbles...Neena style lol
~ a fun steeplechase debut
~ an unfortunate shredding death for one said cow toy
~ a mauling...Brit style
~ Go! Dog! Go!
~ a savior circle
~ making it to the closing in Snooker without being tweeted off lol
~ a row of Ariats
~ Bonnie
~ spontaneous birthday celebrations
~ cat-calling my favorite hockey player

Believe

I believe that I could

win or lose,

that I could fall, or rise,

at any given moment.

I believe the only way I fail, is if I don't try.

Jodi Hills ~ Believe

Somedays I read this book before I even get out of bed...and believe it or not it helps:)!

Neena and I have an agility trial this weekend...I will not doubt.  I know what's in my heart. 

I believe in us.

p.s.  thanks for the reminder.

Wasting my time?

What's on my mind? A month from today I'll be back at the U of L...

Was I surprised that U of C didn't think of me as their #1 pick for the class of 2015? Nope. Did that make it any easier? Not really.

I'm happy to say I don't remember crying, well maybe my eyes watered a little when Dustin left me a voice message telling me he was proud of me anyways. But come on...I'm not a freakin ice cube.

Wasn't anything I could do about it...so I decided to enjoy my summer and worry later. And man have I ever done a good job of that:).

But the truth is it feels like my life is on hold. I'm frustrated. I'm dejected. And worst of all I struggle with self-doubt. Life Truth #813...doesn't matter how many other people believe in you if you don't believe in yourself. I'm working at it.

FYI...I'm not all Debbie Downer...I'm just being honest. I'm getting good at putting on my big girl panties and reminding myself this is not a waste of my time...this chapter of my life does have a purpose. Logically...this is at least part of why I didn't get into vet school...after all the U of C wants to know how bad I want to become Jenilee Peters DVM. What exactly am I willing to do...go through...sacrifice...to get there?

AAAAAND...I'm done talking about it for now.

I'm behind...but here's a few that stick out from the past month.

#266 - 300 of a Thousand, Endless Gifts

~ 35 MPG

~ financial wiggle room

~ pizza on a stick

~ fireworks

~ animal behavior...and that I have a few pals who love to analyze it with me!

~ rodeo's

~ an introduction to working horse competitions!!!

~ real time text messages...

~ party rock anthems

~ being there for Michelle & Sherry's birthdays

~ road trip and old CD's

~ a Facebook wall chat about drugs and hoooookers lololol

~ freshly cut hair

~ seeing hard work pay off...and a demonstration for Windy City Canine Rescue

~ a JD birthday present for my 4 year old...make fun of me all you want!

~ two of my favorite boys

~ being included in family day

~ F18's and Snowbirds

~ dirt on my face at the chuckwagons

~ pride...she's the boss!

~ free choice

~ grace

~ being a rebel...you more so than me;)

~ a sibling road trip...and a little revenge both ways lol

~ 'buttercup' & butter ripple schnapps

~ friends & a modified race

~ Tab's banana bread

~ Sunday's with the family

~ learning something new

~ busy at Alberta Agriculture

~ kittens

~ lily's

~ Katie & Dustin & Wranglers lol

~ a good nights sleep

~ bedtime stories